For as long as I can remember, I have had low self esteem. Most people didn't know it, but I did things growing up, trying to be part of the cool crowd, or catch a certain boys attention, that I should never have done. It took me a long time to ever get to the point where I could say that I loved myself, and even now, there are times when I look in the mirror, and am unsure how I feel about what I see.
I never really wanted to look at what I loved about myself, because truth be told, I didn't think there was anything, but if I really think about it, I guess that what I love most about myself is the way that I worry. I know that probably sounds really strange, but I look at it like this...I worry about people, the way my grandmother worries about her family. It is done out of sheer love. I have often said that I am a helicopter parent, and a helicopter friend, meaning that if you have my heart, you are always within my eyesight, even if you don't think you are.
My ability to love others, is what I love most about myself. It isn't always easy, but if I find that sliver of goodness in someone, and I get to know them, I will love them. I love people that I have never met in person, and some of them are fellow bloggers. I love their spirit, and fight, and good hearts.
So yeah, I love that I love...I am sure there is probably more, but I think it would be better coming from other people that know me. More of a, what we love about you, rather than, what I love about me. It is certainly something that I need to work on, and I have people tell me all the time "Shandi, you have to love yourself first" The thing is, thats not who I am, and no matter how much I try, I always put others first, and its proving to be a hard habit to break...no worries, I will keep trying, and in the meantime, I will do what I do best...LOVE
I never really wanted to look at what I loved about myself, because truth be told, I didn't think there was anything, but if I really think about it, I guess that what I love most about myself is the way that I worry. I know that probably sounds really strange, but I look at it like this...I worry about people, the way my grandmother worries about her family. It is done out of sheer love. I have often said that I am a helicopter parent, and a helicopter friend, meaning that if you have my heart, you are always within my eyesight, even if you don't think you are.
My ability to love others, is what I love most about myself. It isn't always easy, but if I find that sliver of goodness in someone, and I get to know them, I will love them. I love people that I have never met in person, and some of them are fellow bloggers. I love their spirit, and fight, and good hearts.
So yeah, I love that I love...I am sure there is probably more, but I think it would be better coming from other people that know me. More of a, what we love about you, rather than, what I love about me. It is certainly something that I need to work on, and I have people tell me all the time "Shandi, you have to love yourself first" The thing is, thats not who I am, and no matter how much I try, I always put others first, and its proving to be a hard habit to break...no worries, I will keep trying, and in the meantime, I will do what I do best...LOVE
